April 27, 2015

queen of colors


Another week, of me being relatively quiet around here, is gone. Another week that was full and exciting, but also another one that included rough patches and tricky moments.

Before definitely sounding like a broken record, the struggles we're having over here at the moment, are money, money, money. Or better, the lack of it. Maybe one doesn't talk about this in public, especially Germans are super secretive about the topic, but it makes me boiling even typing it. And it so needs to get out.

Some of you might know yourself, about the tradition of not paying your bills. We've all been there, done that. What happens right now though, three major clients of the husband are not paying for the jobs he did for them. This happens a lot in hospitality. And in Berlin on top. Basically every freelancer I have met so far, told me similar stories. It makes me so, so furious.

You will do a job  for a client, with all your passion and energy, and they'll even tell you how happy they are, with what you have done. And then of course, you'll send in your invoice. After nothing is happening in your account and you do not hear back from the client, you will ask politely what might have happended. And you will remind them about the invoice. Most of the times, you'll get no answer. Again. Or you'll get told some funny stories about why, because and how they haven't been able to pay. Still friendly, you are sending out another reminder. They'll tell you that the money had been adviced a day earlier. Again, nothing happens. Well, I don't want to bore you, this goes back and forth for a while. Your tone will get more strict, theirs will become more and more offended. The situation heats up.

I have to admit, not everybody acts like this and over the years, you'll develop one or the other strategy to deal with such situations. Once or twice a year though, it will become too much and things simply explode. As we're both working as freelancers, there is not much to backup or funds we could happily live off for a while. But the part that annoys me the most actually, is all the time and energy spend within these phases. The arguments at home, simply grown out of pressure. The time spend, that I was short in the studio. And all the fun, that has been taken away, because the topic lingers around within everything you'll do.

I am trying to stay focused and disciplined, trying hard to see the little sunny things, as stated yesterday. I also know, that this is going to pass and will look much smaller in respective, but right now I have simply felt like telling you guys, that this is the reason for me being a lot quiet lately.

For this week, I wish that we're able to react wisely and calm. I will hope for the issues to get solved. And I wish for everybody, enough sunny patches to smile about the rain. Have a good one.


P.S. Dania, you were totally right about the branches. A beech it is. Woman, you know your woods!




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11 comments:

  1. i hope, i do hope these troubles pass soon. let me tell you a story about a good friend of mine, living similar hassle. her former business partner, whom she still works for on a regular basis, is always six months behind payments of considerable amounts of money. this has been going on for years. the begging, the stating, the obvious. and no movement. or minimal movement. it's all that or go bust, which is no option, since shop & house & likelihood; all hooked up in the equation. i'm sorry for the hardship, i am.
    i know it's peanuts, but i'd love to take you out on a cup of coffee in july! i know we don't know one another but, you know? anything's possible. i'm staying right above ostbahnhof, anywhere near to you? i'll be in berlin from 2nd till 5th of july. just saying. and good, GOOD luck on the bills. you've every right to complain about malpayments... n♥

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    1. by the way, yes. i notice. lovely, lovely green on the walls there... ;))) n♥

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    2. oh dear, thank you so much for your words. they are very precious to me. and for sharing the story of your friend. though I do not wish for others to struggle with this nasty issue, it does ease the frustration to see, that you're not alone. and that you're not a big failure to have such troubles.

      and absolutely YES for the coffee. please shoot me an email (mail@anntonbeateschmidt.com), I live pretty close to ostbahnhof and I would love to meet you. also, you're super welcome to the studio as well.

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    3. annton!
      great. let's meet up. i'll be emailing you in june. i always love to visit a studio.. maybe i can talk about you later, if you let me shoot some images. {when i'm in the mood, naturally}. ;))) lovely. n♥

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    4. oh, that sounds good. looking forward for your visit. have a great week, dear! xxd

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  2. Send you a big hug! I really can relate to your story, especially the past of taking the fun away and the time you could have spend otherwise. Money is an issue over here and I hate that. I hope that you will have a better week coming up, send you some love!
    xxx

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    1. dear celine, most of us are probably fighting this issue once in a while. so, a hug goes back to you as well. we are so good in what we do, don't you think, we do not deserve these struggles. I wish you a great week as well. may the sun come back big time! xx

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  3. ugh, it's annoying, I know. waiting for two jobs to get paid too. and since the client is in another country, there isn't much I can do should they not pay. frustrating. I'm experimenting with asking for a 50% advance. but needless to say, you lose a lot of jobs like that. especially when it comes to creative work, people aren't too keen on cashing out before they see any results.

    good luck anyways. thinking of you xoxo

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    1. yes, I totally understand the 50%. with private client it does work for thomas, but for agencies unfortunately not. and even when in the same country, you still have to find "creative" ways of pressure towards those clients, as the normal ways are just taking up such a long time. and are expensive in the beginning. thank you for the good wishes! xoxo

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  4. auf deutsch, weil mein englisch so eingerostet ist... hach, wie kenn ich das so gut. es ist so enervierend. und du hast so recht, darüber zu sprechen! als ich noch workshops in schulen gab, bekam ich aus versehen ein papier in die hand von der kulturvermittlung für schulen, wie man mit künstlern umgeht. da stand tatsächlich drin, künstler seien unzuverlässig, man dürfe sie erst bezahlen, wenn sie wirklich die gesamte arbeit geleistet hätten, und man solle ja kein geld anzahlen. - dieser schule musste ich damals etliche male wegen meines honorars nachlaufen. ja, genau das macht dann unzuverlässig - nicht was die arbeit betrifft, aber was das eigene bezahlen von rechnungen angeht. es hat sich bis heute nichts geändert. vor drei jahren haben gleich mehrere große kunden meinen lebensgefährten nicht bezahlt und das über ein jahr hinweg. und es scheint keinen weg zu geben, damit umzugehen. ich meine, wenn dann endlich das geld kommt, haben sich so viele mahnspesen und zinsen angesammelt, dass es erst wieder nicht mehr reicht, man selbst muss aber froh sein, wenigstens den rechnungsbetrag oder zumindest den zu bekommen... ich stehe ja nun auch wieder davor, mich selbständig machen zu müpssen, lange habe ich mit einer kollegin einen weg gesucht, die waldpädagogik im angestelltenverhältnis machen zu können. aber an der selbständigkeit führt scheinbar kein weg vorbei. das macht mir ein bisschen angst, weil ich als mama gar nicht so viel zeit investieren kann, um wenigstens auf das minimum der sozialversicherungszahlungen zu kommen. welch eine falle für menschen, die nicht 24 stunden sieben tage täglich ohne urlaub arbeiten können/wollen. auch bekomme ich mein geld für schulführungen dann wiederum vom staat, und - ganz recht - erst im nachhinein, wobei kein recht darauf besteht, nur solange der fördertopf voll ist. ... liebe, ich halte die daumen, dass es besser wird! dir, mir und uns allen da draußen, denen es ähnlich geht!
    ha - wie schön er geworden ist, der buchenzweig! er treibt! nun sollte er noch früchte tragen im übertragenen sinne...

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    1. ach Dania, du ahnst gar nicht, wie gut mir deine worte getan haben. nicht, dass ich irgendwem anderen wünsche durch diesen mist hindurch zu müssen, aber es hilft doch sehr zu hören, dass die eigene wahrnehmung nicht vollkommen verquer ist. einige der probleme sind inzwischen gelöst, aber wie du richtig bemerkst, im runde zu spät und für uns teuer. wir versuchen hier durchzuhalten und nach anderen auftraggebern zu suchen. ich glaube es gibt sie, aber es ist schwierig. und mit denen die solche schwierigkeiten machen, darf man wohl nicht weiterarbeiten. aber manchmal ist genau das das schwierigste. ich wünsche dir für deine neue selbständigkeit alles, alles gute. und, dass wir es schaffen die menschen ein bisschen zu erziehen oder aus unserem umfeld zu werfen. ganz liebe grüße annton

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